Anonymous Confession #27

Author: Shy

Confession:
For some time now, a fantasy has been appearing in my mind—one I have never told anyone about. I imagine situations in which I take full control – I dominate, decide, lead. It is not only about sex, but about the tension, about the moment when the other person gives me power and trusts me unconditionally.

In real life, I am calm, rather withdrawn. And yet in these fantasies I feel strong, ruthless, self-confident. Sometimes I imagine elements of BDSM – a blindfold, bound wrists, whispered commands.

I have done nothing wrong. I have hurt no one. But I am afraid that what I carry in my mind may one day come to light. I am afraid that someone will see this other side of me – the one that craves control and crossing boundaries.

Is it just an innocent fantasy, or something I should suppress within myself?

Penance:
Penance, I stand before You with my dark thoughts. In my imagination I wander, craving dominance and control, as if liberation from this inner cage gave me power. The value of trust and surrender in my fantasies tempts me, yet I fear that these desires are becoming a dangerous thread that may entangle me with reality. I confess this in silence: I have hurt no one, but the fear of being discovered is my prison. Make me innocent in the face of these desires, so that I may learn to tame them.